Who Am I? The Identity of a Blog…
As if I were speaking on behalf of my blog, like if it were an actual, living being, or if my blog and I were somehow linked as one…I might go so far as to say that we are having an identity crisis!!
A year ago we were going strong! Not missing a day. Every 24 hours a new delightful account of what was happening in the lives of my boys; or the ins and outs of a tasty new recipe that we enjoyed together as a family; or a movie review of The Breakfast Club; or even what Hollywood faces currently made my heart beat an extra beat…It was fun stuff!
I miss that. My blog entries have been reduced to once a week, two if I’m lucky. I know the reason and it isn’t because I’m lazy.
I HAVE BECOME CRAFTY!
Not in the way the Beastie Boys used the term in their song, “She’s Crafty…” as in the Dictionary.com definition: skillful in underhand or evil schemes; cunning; deceitful; sly
But as in CRAFTER-n. creator of great skill in the manual arts (dictionary.com)
Creator of skill in the manual arts…don’t you think that aught to go on a business card?
But, it is true!! I have become a crafter. One year ago, I wasn’t a crafter. And, if I may be so bold as to even admit for one moment, a year ago I thought crafting (ahem…c.r.a.f.t.e.r.s.) was, dare I say it? Boring…
See? I think my confession is too awful to mutter that I have to type the word in the smallest font possible. And, you are witnessing it here, folks, a public apology for wrongly judging crafters and an admission that crafters are geniuses! And, may I so humbly ask to be a part of their world if they would have me?
Who represents the “they” of crafters, I wonder. Is it a cute lady hiding in a booth behind a wonderfully adorned curtain of fabric flowers, buttons, beads, lace, banners, twinkle lights and hodge podge? Kind of like the wizard in The Wizard of Oz?
I don’t know. But I love this, this new world of creativity, color and wonder! I love seeing what can be done and made! I love doing it! I love when I finish a button flower arrangement and I look at it and say, “I made that!” And, when someone who sees it smiles and says that they love it too, well then, that is even better because what I made put a smile on someone else’s face! The same can be said when I make my new wrap bracelets and see them worn on someone’s wrist as they walk away from the art market. How great does that make me feel? Pretty Great! It goes back to when I originally started blogging and the reason why I started in the first place – to make a difference (tiny or large) in someone’s day.
These are the new wrap bracelets I have started making and selling at the Colorado Farm and Art Market on Saturdays.
Let’s go back to my lonely blog, shall we? When I sit down at the dining room table to write on my blog, it is usually surrounded with a littering of beads, buttons, fabric, wire and scissors! You see, the table where we eat has also become my craft table…here look…this is what it looks like when there isn’t food upon it (and this is actually very tidy compared to most days!)
Remember when I first became obsessed with buttons? Well, I do. And I am experiencing a similar feeling towards beads!
I bought fabric only one other time in my life and it was last fall for a craft project that I was to do with some friends and never did. But three of the patterns in this photo are from that never-done-project, so there you go!
Ahhh…my buttons. I love them. I’ve developed quite a collection over the past six months…is that all it’s been by the way? Time flies when your building button flowers, I guess!
But you see, the beads and the buttons and the blog are all vying for my attention. Not to mention my boys. And my Beau.(Chris of course!) I can’t help it…I must keep the alliteration going!
What, you might ask, is the point of all these ramblings? Ha! I don’t know for sure! Maybe I had to simply discuss my realization that I am astonished at the appreciation that I have gained for hand-made wondrous treasures. Could it be that without realizing it, I have placed my beloved blog on the back burner and it begs to be moved forward? Am I discovering a different person in me than who I was just a year ago? Many questions, indeed. With no certain answers. I don’t know how those other super women do it. The ones who blog regualrly, keep up their Etsy shops, build their handy work on a regular basis AND keep up a household, a marriage, a family…Those girls are amazing. I think I’m just me and only one me. Just one.
It’s like a puzzle. A puzzle that I’m working on everyday. I’m slowly learning where the puzzle pieces go but just when I think I might be finding a spot for the last piece to finish it, I realize there is always just one extra piece to find a spot for!
I love this post! I’m so happy that you’ve grown into who you’ve always wanted to be without really ever knowing who you wanted to be. This Jen, is great! I love you.